As I’m getting older, I’m surrounded by people who already know how their life is set with their significant other or they have they’re living the free adult life of not settling down and just messing with people.
And I’m over here lost. To me it’s important to have someone else there for me. I don’t know how to explain it.
I feel like I’ve met my fair share of guys but have pushed them away because of how one relationship messed with my head.
It was basically a 3 year relationship and I swear I thought I was in love. I was just in love with the fact that someone else “loved” me. But looking back this other person was such a bad influence on me, often treated me miserably, and so on. I was blinded by this thing called “love” and now it’s affected me to this day.
I think about whether if I get in another relationship will I go through the same thing? I know I probably won’t but I’m scared.
And what sucks is that I’m scared but I want someone to want me. I feel empty since it’s been so long. I have my friends and family who love me but there’s something missing.