Here’s an update. I told myself I’d be more you know rave enough to do things sober. So I did and they didn’t go very well and now it’s like hitting me hard. Like as a reminder of this is why I don’t say shit because you’ll look fucking stupid and then you’ll get all insecure.
Gosh I really hate myself right now. Like a lot. Like I haven’t felt this horrible about myself in a while. LIKE WHY DO I DO THESE THINGS.
Or like why can’t people like me for who I am and not the fake person I am intoxicated.